O LORD, WHY DID I ASK?
“I am the one who is”
There is an inexplicable wealth of substance in who He is, that He just doesn’t want to be disturbed to start talking, so he just smiles and says “I am”, an expression said in a certain ‘humility’ as if talking to a child about who you are when you’re too much to begin with and you don’t even have a beginning.
So my eyes are hovering around the room, and (in abstraction) around the universe, and when I think of I am, I think about the verb ‘To Be’. As a grammar student in more than 2 languages and with the emphasis I place on the verb ‘To be’ with respect to different moods, aspects, tenses and diverse pronouns, when trying to teach French to an English speaker who has no knowledge of the technical aspects of the English language or his local dialect, I can imagine what it would take a human with achievements as big as existing before the world and creating the world and minding every human and owning the wealth of the earth and being responsible for the beauty of the universe to call myself I AM.
I just exploded with an ibo expression but I can’t write out what I said because it only carries the weight of it’s meaning in the original language…a lot is lost in translation most of the time…. Think of what we may have lost simply because people made efforts to translate יהוה to I am, meaning HE WHO IS HE, or I AM THAT (WHAT/WHO) I AM, the Kabbalah interprets this as Yahweh Himself is equal to His name.
By identifying Himself as “I AM,” God is declaring that He always exists in the immediate now as before the world. He isn’t bound by time like we are. There was never a time when God wasn’t. He always IS, or always ‘AM’. He has no fixed point when He was born or brought into being. He has no beginning or end. He is the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last ( Revelation 22:13).
God calls Himself I AM, a name which describes His eternal power and unchangeable character. “I AM THAT I AM,” declares God to be self- existent, without beginning, without end. This is also expressed in the term “Yahweh,” meaning “I Am the One Who Is.”
Even if ‘I am the One who is’, is God’s response to “I am who?”, given that “I am who?” was a possible retort or question in the mind of a yet perplexed Moses, like a Secretary or registration officer waiting to take down your surname, or even your first name in this case, it still doesn’t do justice to God’s expression of Himself as ‘I am’.
If you confidently replied me with ‘I am the One who is’ you might as well have stopped at ‘I am’.
Just like ‘I do’, I think the perfect translation would have been ‘I be’, but God didn’t want you to think of Him as a subject of time, because as an infinite verb, ‘Be’ would have to be subject to the different variations of conjugation, controlled by time, dominated by moods, persons and numbers.
‘I am’, is not an incomplete description, it’s not lacking object or adjective or noun or first name, it is a whole expression, of 3 letters, yet larger than the universe, a complete expression, deeper than our minds can contain, higher than eternity, only fit for God, Yahweh, the I am, that our words can never explain. It’s like “I’d rather leave it as that, than to break it down for you. I’ll reveal myself to you, but I can’t minimise myself just so you can understand, but I love you and I want you to get to know me, and not see me as too unapproachable for you, because I want a relationship with you, so I am….not because I’m short of words, but I am…because I am.”
And that’s deep!
But Uncle Moses is a funny man though. With time, after becoming a huge fan of God’s, he asked to see his glory, his face…
And the same God said in Exodus 33:
- 20 But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live.”
21 Then the Lord said, “There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock.
22 When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by.
23Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen.”
That’s the same God who told you His name is I AM, because His ‘identity’ is too grand for you to comprehend, in your small soft human brain packaged like large sized macaronis in a secure dome called a skull, no matter how amazingly sophisticated and impeccable your brain is, you haven’t even been able to use up to 20% and now you want to have them blown out? That’s death….He said I am, that’s too grand, too vast, too deep, too timeless, too unique because He is not like other gods, and it would be insulting to compare him with, He is in a class of His own, that should not be called ‘a class’ because it limits him,it categorises him, so He just Is, He Be, He Am, He Is I Am, who Is, the One who is equal to His name, what is this his name? I am.
He is….so I call Him what He is to me and in my times of wonderment, I jst say with confirmation, as if in a whisper “Youuuuuuuuu aaaaaaaaarrrrrre” giving a slow nod of unwavering and doubtless approval (which He doesn’t need from me, my opinion doesn’t matter). Because He is.
I don’t need to put you in a box…You are!
- “Therefore watch yourselves very carefully. Since you saw no form on the day that the LORD spoke to you at Horeb out of the midst of the fire, beware lest you act corruptly by making a carved image for yourselves, in the form of any figure, the likeness of male or female… (Deut 4:15-19)
We have called you many names, and I’m still looking for many more names to call you, as my personal lover, but ikari ihe anyi si n’ibu.(Igbo expression meaning «You surpass what we say You are»)
Lord I worship you because of who you are♬
“Who are You?”
You are the One who is the One that You Are.
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